Starting Over…

Yes, it has happened- and I totally knew it would.  I knew at some point in this mission to obtain a healthy BMI, I would fall off track .  That is why I was obese…I struggle with my weight.  I pretty much always have.  I knew it was unlikely for me to just decide to lose the thirty pounds and do it and that is the end of the story.  No.  Life is not like that.  Humans are not like that.  Weight loss is hard to do, and so is changing lifelong habits.

Last week while I was on a vacation, (a six day traveling spree which included tent camping at the beach, an over-night stay with a close friend in Portland, and a weekend in Seattle), you would not be able to observe my so-called dietary mission.  Instead you would have seen me eating for pleasure, boredom, and even my least favorite- preventative eating.  I call it preventative eating when we are not really hungry, but we grab a meal because we may not have time to eat later.  Because we wouldn’t want to say…have a hunger pang.  It's almost as if we think to ourselves: Good Lord, I can handle anything but hunger today!   What kind of a crisis would that be?!  So we eat in effort to prevent hunger from happening…it is the most non-sense act in dietary mistakes if you ask me.  I should know- I have done all of them. 

So here I am on “weigh-in Wednesday” as I have called it.  I got up in the morning and thought about this past week.  I pictured me at the campfire eating my vegan friendly chocolate bar…my graham crackers, going out to eat and snagging some fries off my kid’s plates.  I was pretty much out of control all week and I didn’t care enough to make a change about it.  Hey…I was on vacation!  I think my goals and care about my health and happiness was on vacation as well.

I wanted to just not weigh myself.  You know that feeling when you know it is going to be bad news, so you would just rather skip it altogether?  That was me.  However, I decided to embrace this consequence and be what I promised my readers I would be…daringly honest.  I weighed and saw that I gained 3 pounds.  Three pounds!!!  I never danced a happy dance over gaining three pounds until today, people!  You have no idea how much I deserved to gain ten…or at least five. 

So here I am, at 147 pounds again.  Starting over is somewhat refreshing in a way, because I already have fallen down.  Now I get to pick myself up and try again.  That is exactly what I intend on doing.  So today, here is my diet:

Breakfast	Lunch	Dinner
1 cup coffee w/soy milk banana 128 calories	1 veggie fajita 243 calories	1 bowl pinto beans w/ fresh homemade pico de gallo (salsa) 2 corn tortillas 1 whole wheat tortilla 690 calories

Today’s calories totaled 1061.  I didn’t have to have so many beans or tortillas at dinner tonight, but I can guarantee that this is an improvement and not a bad first day back on track.  Tomorrow I need to meet my minimum fruit requirement as today I was shy.  Here’s to a brand new start!