June 28, 2016

Do you ever have a weekend of bad dietary decisions and then dread the scale in order to face the music?  That was basically me this morning!  I had made homemade pizza this weekend…four of them.  So of course we had pizza for two days for my family of six and enough to send with my husband on a business trip for an on-the-road snack.  Granted…my pizza does not include meat or cheese, it is still delicious and it is still hard to just have two slices.  Two pizza’s had just sauce, pineapple, and olives.  The other two were Mexican style with refried beans, then we added the lettuce, toms and hot sauce after they came out of the oven.  Good stuff!  It was not really a good idea for me to have or make though in terms of my plans to not overeat.  However, what am I going to do?  Not ever eat pizza again?!  No, that is not what I want or desire.  I have to try to practice moderation. 

Then there was last night…I got home with five kids in tow from a hot hour and half in the summer sun for one of my kiddos soccer practice.  All of the kids were spent!  They did not have much tolerance for anything after the sun exposure became too much. 

So what did I do?  I of course did exactly what I try not to do.  I used food to improve moral.  Remember that ice cream that a friend had graciously brought over because Ben & Jerrys makes vegan friendly ice cream now?  Well I have been bothered by it lately.  I open the freezer and there they are.  When I get my frozen berries for smoothies, I see ice cream.  I don’t want to see ice cream, because I don’t want to eat it.  Anyways…I figured that I could get two birds with two stones.  “Hey kids- stop fighting and I will let you watch a show and have ice cream when we get home!” 

Well, my children are my children, so it totally worked- they were thrilled!  I did not have a serving, but I took a few small bites as I was dishing them up.  I looked at the label- 200 calories per half cup and most of that is fat derived nutrients.  UGH!  Not worth it, to over-indulge…BUT my few tiny bites were enough to keep any deprived feeling or guilt at bay. 

Anyways, I was sure all the pizza and ice cream late in the evening could only mean one thing- weight gain.  So I bucked up and faced the music and weighed.  I am still 144 pounds!  It’s a miracle…actually it is not a miracle.  It means my body weight has stabilized and it is ready to lose weight again if I do the work consistently, not just during the week or every other day.  In fact that is probably why I have been wanting naughty foods or have been tempted to not continue my plan towards BMI health.  Our bodies have worked hard to store all our fat and our plan to reduce fat percentage and sabatage the innate, biological survival tools creates a cognitive war with food.  

So, today is a new day!  I love saying that- I feel so full of hope and inspiration when I think of it.  I ran 2.5 miles this morning.  My hip is not punishing me.  I have eaten oatmeal with a banana, soy milk, and brown sugar for breakfast.  Not too bad…not too good either.  Anyways, I am pretty sure I will have a diet I can be proud of today because I am inspired and thankful I did not gain weight.  Time to move on.  I can’t wait to say goodbye to the 140’s and hello to a healthy BMI.  For the first time since HS, by the way…life is good!